Learning as I go

I just wanted to say that I am learning. I have made it easier to hear from you. If you are a member or not, whether you have something nice to say or not, I want your feedback. You can leave a comment completely anonymous now. Or you can just tell me off.

It never gets any easier

It seems all I can do these days is morn another friend passing. Just when I started to get a grip over the loss of Titus, I get word of Jason Ellison. He was a good friend that I meet back at a job. Well, Cafe Mahogany was more than a job. It was a place that those of us creative odd balls could come together.

That's exactly what we were. I was still figuring out what my purpose in life was (not that I feel too advanced in that area) when I came into this place. I meet other b-boys and graffiti artists. I felt free to be who I was, for the most part. I really embraced what this place meant to not just me but many other people. I eventually looked to the place for more than a platform to express, I looked to carve out a living there.

Before I rose to partnership in LazyBoddy Entertainment, Jason came in looking to make a few dollars. He was hired in and we clicked an immediately. We both wanted to blanket the city of Detroit with murals to inspire people to rise above. We had a passion for working in three dimensions as well.

When I took hiatus from the hip hop scene, I lost touch with him. By the luck of life, he moved into a neighbors place for a short time. It was as though not a single day had passed since the last time I seen him. His art had shown tremendous growth and maturity that I was envious of. But I never showed that.

This time, after we moved to new locations, we didn't loose contact. We would hang more and more. But eventually we drifted apart. Not due to a fall out or anything like that. I fell in love and moved in with my girl. I spent so much time with her, I lost time with a lot of people. He was one of them.

Then, I moved to NYC with her. I seriously lost touch with him. I never felt as though we wouldn't pick right back up where we left off at. That was up until an hour ago. I saw a mutual friend put up RIP for him. It just numbed my whole body. I feel as though we had unfinished business. We both planned on attending Cooper Union. I believe that was still going to happen.

I can keep on going, but I really don't have the energy to do so. I guess I'll finish this with one last thing. Treat every last day you have, every minute with your peoples whoever they are, treat every moment in life as though it just might be your last. Because it just might be.