If you want to change the world, you have to change yourself first. I've heard this so many times and by so many different people. It's been used in the movies again and again. Unfortunately for me, it took 32 years for it to sink in.Recently, I saw for the first time how I am a first class fuck up. Some friends might argue and say I am not that bad. I will agree with them. But at the same time, I know myself and what I hide from the world.
You see, for a while, I would use the problems in this world as an excuse to engage in my destructive ways. I felt that it was enough to justify my need for an escape. I felt that it would be better to sedate myself instead of dealing with my problems.
Now, I am seeing for the first time how this has affected my life. I look back at situations that I thought I handled well. In hind sight, I realized that I actually hurt myself in the long run. I half assed a few situations that could have been quite
the opportunity for me.The beautiful thing about this is that it is not too late for me. I cannot change the past but I can change myself for the better. I hope that you too are grabbing life by the horns and taking charge.
